Thursday, February 5, 2009

Everything is lame

Having a rough couple of days. No need going into the details or the why's of what's up, but it's enough to say that I'm just having a bit of an episode. I'm pretty depressed, I don't want to do anything but sleep, and it's taking quite a bit of willpower to stay up. I have a ton of stuff to do, and no interest in any of it.

I think I'll take a bath and hope I come up with something else to do to avoid sleeping, because, if I sleep, I'll wake up in 4 or 5 or possibly 8 hours from now, then I'll stay up til noon doing nothing, and I'll have to sleep again as long as I can in order to function at work later. If I just stay up until noon, then I won't mess up my sleep schedule and I can have a semi-normal night at work (IE: falling asleep for one hour, as opposed to five).

I knew this drop in mood was coming, I saw it coming and patiently waited for it, and now that it's here I can't go much further down, so I guess it's back to feeling good soon.

2 comments:

Tractor Operator said...

dude, get rid of the stupid music player on your blog. I want to read your blog and most of the time, I have to read it after midnight, while other people are sleeping in my house. It is noisy, annoying and could very easily be an option rather than a "play=true" situation. Sorry, I'm in a shitty mood. My Mom is back in the Cancer club.
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I'm really sorry that you are still having trouble with the sleeping. It runs in the family. I'm getting a few a night. I don't fall asleep at school or work, but I can't seem to sleep regularly at all. Being exhausted is conflicting with everything. I can't focus on my reading for classes, which means I'm getting twice as much for my money, since I have to read everything twice.
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You might find that this type of thing diminishes with time. By time I mean years, not months or days. Good luck. Are you going to St. George anytime soon? I am considering visiting for my 30th. Weird that I have to visit for MY birthday, but such is life. How is Curtis?

Unknown said...

Lame???



On the path of life, I wish you well
Divergent journeys, but we will meet again in Hell
I kept my head down and moved on
Til every friend I'd known was gone

Then, one day, I was not alone
Everything had changed, everything was strange
Everything had changed, everything was strange

When in rags and when in wealth
A solemn promise never to give too much of myself
Despite the hopeful things I've said
I've lived my life inside my head

Then, one day, I was not alone
Everything had changed, everything was strange
Everything had changed, everything was strange

I hold my breath and count to ten
I hate it now; hated it then
I've seen it all before
A failure and a bore
But that's what friends are for

So it seems I must have won
As I survey the ashes of the damage that I've done
Everyone I've ever known
Is just as closed off and alone

Then, one day, I was not alone
Everything had changed, everything was strange
Everything had changed, everything was strange
Everything had changed, everything was strange
Everything had changed, everything